I don’t want the gifts.
I want to be happy, truly happy.
I’m stuck on ignorance, someone get me out :/
venting mode
12:15am 2/17/13
![Dear Jonathan Thavie Samuth,
I’ve known you since 2006, Those middle school days when you first started crushin’on me, and i just saw you as a gangbanger. Then HS came around and i added you on MS. I noticed you talked to A LOT of females but it didn’t really bother me since it wasn’t my intention to become you “gf”. As the days went by we got closer and closer, and began to get into eachothers heads to learn more about eachother. You started walking me to ALL of my classes and offered to hold my books :]. I noticed that there were less and less females on your comments as the days went by and i started to acknowledge that you had feelingsfor me. I chose to let them not turn into anything more. One day when we were walking to science, i was like ” GP, are those short pants or long ass shorts -_-, pull those up. my daddy said that’s how you know you’re someones BITCH in prision” You laughed at me and kept walking, but sure enough . . the next day those pants were pulled up, and i never saw them sagging ever again :]. Baby, remember when you wore those 2XL white ts, and i’d pull them back and say ” it looks like you’re wearing a dress ” haha, i love how you started waring fitted Ts after that. I felt so happy, that you stuck around for 5 long years, always giving me a shoulder to lean on. And even after all the girls that ever tried to get with you, You brushed them off for me, even if i had a bf you chose me. I apologize for getting with my recent ex, we both know my reasons and the situation. I LOVE that we have a long history together, not just weeks not even monthsof some childish bullshit, we actually have a long historty of a friendship :]. You’re so good to me, you know that? I’ve never had a bf that treated me so well, a boyfriend that makes me happy no matter what. I’m not lying to you. You’re the first boyfriend that i have ever gotten the family approvalfrom. The only bf that my DAD has ever let sleep in the same room as me. The only BF that my dad has let drive his Hatch freely. My mom had NEVER asked me to invite a guy over so many times, until you came along. My little brother and older brother have never liked any of my boyfriends without them buying them something until you came along. I know i made you wait so long to finally be labled as my boyfriend. But it really was worth the wait, you proved to me that you’d do anything for me. LOL you chose me over your love for basketball. You broke the hearts of girls that tried stealing you from me, to show me that i was the only one you were willing to be serious with <3. You brought me home to your family :]. Throught my18 years of living, i’ve never been with a guy that’s sooooo… .amazing.](http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_m1l3bmwH6C1qa2ohro1_500.jpg)
Dear Jonathan Thavie Samuth,
I’ve known you since 2006, Those middle school days when you first started crushin’on me, and i just saw you as a gangbanger. Then HS came around and i added you on MS. I noticed you talked to A LOT of females but it didn’t really bother me since it wasn’t my intention to become you “gf”. As the days went by we got closer and closer, and began to get into eachothers heads to learn more about eachother. You started walking me to ALL of my classes and offered to hold my books :]. I noticed that there were less and less females on your comments as the days went by and i started to acknowledge that you had feelingsfor me. I chose to let them not turn into anything more. One day when we were walking to science, i was like ” GP, are those short pants or long ass shorts -_-, pull those up. my daddy said that’s how you know you’re someones BITCH in prision” You laughed at me and kept walking, but sure enough . . the next day those pants were pulled up, and i never saw them sagging ever again :]. Baby, remember when you wore those 2XL white ts, and i’d pull them back and say ” it looks like you’re wearing a dress ” haha, i love how you started waring fitted Ts after that. I felt so happy, that you stuck around for 5 long years, always giving me a shoulder to lean on. And even after all the girls that ever tried to get with you, You brushed them off for me, even if i had a bf you chose me. I apologize for getting with my recent ex, we both know my reasons and the situation. I LOVE that we have a long history together, not just weeks not even monthsof some childish bullshit, we actually have a long historty of a friendship :]. You’re so good to me, you know that? I’ve never had a bf that treated me so well, a boyfriend that makes me happy no matter what. I’m not lying to you. You’re the first boyfriend that i have ever gotten the family approvalfrom. The only bf that my DAD has ever let sleep in the same room as me. The only BF that my dad has let drive his Hatch freely. My mom had NEVER asked me to invite a guy over so many times, until you came along. My little brother and older brother have never liked any of my boyfriends without them buying them something until you came along. I know i made you wait so long to finally be labled as my boyfriend. But it really was worth the wait, you proved to me that you’d do anything for me. LOL you chose me over your love for basketball. You broke the hearts of girls that tried stealing you from me, to show me that i was the only one you were willing to be serious with <3. You brought me home to your family :]. Throught my18 years of living, i’ve never been with a guy that’s sooooo… .amazing.
letter to you <3
Christian Chan Ortega,
Known you since i moved to Stockton when i was six. I remember when i first saw you, i was like “why the eff is this kidd kicking a ball at his window” haha. I remember when i was 7 and i would see you and my brother play pokemon cards and i would bug the shit out of you because that’s when i first started crushing on you. I bet you don’t remember when your sister invited me to your house, then i pissed her the fuck off and she didn’t want me in her room anymore so you came down stairs nd talked to me for a bit. Playing catch infront of our houses till late is what makes me smile when ever i think of our childhood memories. If i ever had a problem i would always go to you,and you’d cheer me up. I’m thankful that even after i ran away to your house, and your sisters stopped talking to me and our families grew apart that you and I kept in touch. I’m glad that for the most part you kept it real between you and i no matter what. Thanks for letting me learn my rights from wrongs on my own. I can’t believe we’ve known eachother for 11 years already. Thank you for putting up with my BS, mahal kita baby <3 happy 18th birthday
